Careful Fear and Dead Devotion
Val, 21 Archive Message Links
Anonymous asked: I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents. Please try and be strong.

Thank you. I hope I can go see her one more time but I am currently stuck at work and while the rest of my family will go to the hospital tomorrow I can’t. 

My grandpa died not even four months ago and now my grandma is in hospital and it doesn’t look good and I really don’t know how to process things at the moment. It’s just not fair.

Winthrop, Massachusetts, 2013

White Doors, Vilhelm Hammershoi (1905)
While his subject-matter may seem repetitious, Hammershoi is the master of subtly and subtle changes. His style of painting which seems influenced by Dutch genre artists like Vermeer and the impressionists, remains the same throughout, but his aesthetic is rich in the bridges it creates. The strange stillness of his paintings, especially the ones without human subjects, are almost surreal and his compositions and portraits, most notably when we only see the back of the subject’s head, are abstract in their experiments with compositional convention.
Empty space dominates the paintings. Hammershoi’s muted emotion are emblematic to the mono no aware in Japanese visual art. The silence of his paintings are so great that you can almost hear it.

Westfjords, Iceland | Zöe Robert
Green Gloves by The National

On how to drown ashore

you make life a compassionate leave
a six month stay in neptune years
a map unfolded in front of you
by sordid, filthy hands

you spot roots beneath your feet
and call them weeds, not home
when a stranger brushes your back
it’s like lighting matches on sandpaper

you say life comes with a warm embrace
a tenderness you never asked for
a lover with a complex upkeep
a pair of shoes too good to wear out

darling, dearest, love of mine

what a burden to be alive
what a trouble seeker you are
what a waste of blood red kisses
what a waste of a young heart

I need to figure out which universities I want to apply to for Erasmus and I can’t decide. Bergen sounds great, so does London, so does Manchester, so does Lancaster, so does Reykjavik,…

It’s just that I suffer very eloquently. — Joni Mitchell

(Source: violentwavesofemotion)


Interior with Young Woman from Behind, 1904 | Oil on canvas | 61 x 50 cm | Vilhelm Hammershøi
Vilhelm Hammershøi, often written in English Vilhelm Hammershoi [15 May 1864 – 13 February 1916] was a Danish painter. He is known for his poetic, low-key portraits and interiors.
Hammershøi’s paintings are best described as muted in tone. He refrained from employing bright colors (except in his very early academic works), opting always for a limited palette consisting of greys, as well as desaturated yellows, greens, and other dark hues. His tableaux of figures turned away from the viewer project an air of slight tension and mystery, while his exteriors of grand buildings in Copenhagen and in London [he painted two exteriors of the British Museum between 1905 and 1906] are devoid of people, a quality they share with his landscapes.
In 2005, Hammershøi’s life and oeuvre was featured in a BBC television documentary, Michael Palin and the Mystery of Hammershoi, with the British comedian and writer Michael Palin. In the programme, Palin, fascinated by Hammershøi, whose pictures he conceived as having a distinct enigmatic coolness and distance about them, sets out to unlock the mysteries and find out about the background of Hammershøi. Palin, wanting to know of his inspirations and the reason for these mystical pictures, started his search in Hayward Gallery in London, goes to Amsterdam and finally to Copenhagen.
Der Fall Josef S.: Ein Stein im Mosaik

Für alle, die an der Causa Josef S. interessiert sind. Ich fand den Kommentar gut geschrieben und vor allem den Vergleich im Bezug auf die Wertigkeit von Zeugenaussagen sehr passend gewählt.

Your voice sounds completely different in different languages. It alters your personality somehow. I don’t think people get the same feeling from you. The rhythm changes. Because the rhythm of the language is different, it changes your inner rhythm and that changes how you process everything.
When I hear myself speak French, I look at myself differently. Certain aspects will feel closer to the way I feel or the way I am and others won’t. I like that—to tour different sides of yourself. I often find when looking at people who are comfortable in many languages, they’re more comfortable talking about emotional stuff in a certain language or political stuff in another and that’s really interesting, how people relate to those languages. — François Arnaud, for Interview Magazine

(Source: iraplastic, via orchidetelm)